Before and After

So I am approaching 40.

Peri menopause has set in...I know from the hot flashes, not from the foul mood. There has been quite a bit of reflecting going on for me lately. Looking back, looking forward, looking at today. What have I done, have I done what I should (not always), do I do what I need to...why am I still going to school, why is this taking me so long. Am I a good mother, friend, wife, sister, daughter? Some days yes, some no. I feel a little muddled up. Where is the time going? Where are the sweet babies that were so little? They grow up so fast. Some days I am so sad and some days I want to celebrate. Is that normal even? Hm.

Here are some pictures that reflect what's been on my mind. If only digital photos went back further, but you know...Before and after...